Ramblings

I've been thinking a lot lately about how much I love being a parent. Hadley still gets up so much at night, and of course I'm frustrated at her sometimes for it, but most of the time I see my little girl cry or reach out her arm for me and I just want to hold her and kiss her. I am still breastfeeding (this is a lot longer than pre-mom was expecting) and I love it. I have a feeling I'll be stopping soon because Hadley seems ready for it - she latches on for a few seconds and then is ready for something else. This makes me pretty sad and if you know me, you'll be shocked that I feel this way. Before I had her, I had mothering scheduled. I would have her on this date, breastfeed until this date, second kid on this date, etc...She certainly threw a wrench on my plans, but definitely for the better. There's nothing like a child to keep you on your toes.

I'm not sure if she'll read this post one day, but if she does, I want her to know how much I absolutely love being a mother, especially her mother. I'm a much better person now that I am her mother.

Crawling

Hadley started crawling yesterday. Not going backwards or shifting the butt enough to move, but really crawling! Her type of crawling is funny though - she is a little lazy with the left leg and the right does most of the work. I've heard this is pretty typical, but it was a little shocking to see at first. Today she zoomed her way past us to grab a bag of sun chips. I think Justin and I are now in for a lot of trouble (and fun)!

Crib

Since Hadley can now sit up from her tummy position, we've moved her to a crib in her own room. Tonight is the 4th night of this and we're constantly waking up at night to soothe her. It's been pretty rough, but sometimes I think it's more rough for me since I miss having her somewhat next to me in the room. I'm sure when she sleeps better again I'll feel better about all this. I *never* thought I'd have her in my room for so long, but even though she'll be 9 month soon, she seems so small and fragile to me sometimes.

Sitting up

Hadley learned how to sit up from her tummy position on Monday night August 3rd. I was putting her to bed and having an extremely tough time. She didn't want to be bounced on the yoga ball, facing forward or in cradle position, and kept screaming and screaming (yes, those few glorious days of 7pm-2am were gone after her fever over the weekend). I *finally* got her calm enough to lay her in her co-sleeper and moved far enough away in the room so she wouldn't see me. Well, a few seconds later, she pokes her head out of the co-sleeper and smiles at me! That was the last night of the co-sleeper.